It seems like no matter how I try to start writing this I can’t pick a way, so I guess I’ll start by saying how this week has been a drunken blur. I have been going out almost every night the past week and a half. I’m a standing beer pong champ now and can’t remember some things. I think it was a success regardless. But the more I go out and the more I don’t the more I realize how fake people are and can be. It’s really mind blowing. Or how everyone has to be “different” from everybody else or how people go out of their way and against the way they truly feel inside just to be a certain way for a crowd or certain someone or anything in particular besides themselves. Weather it’s a clothing style, dying hair, a hair cut, the type of hobbies they pick up, the drugs they do, or the people they surround them self with further it’s all ridiculous. No wonder I don’t have any friends. No one can just be themselves. Needless to say I’ve made a few impacting changes in my life the past month. I’ve stopped surrounding myself with certain people, and have been spending much less time at Starbucks (haha).
I’ve also dyed my hair black which was really depressing but empowering at the same time. The black is always fucking sexy and now I can wear my extensions. The purple that was meant to be lavender that started out blue was just never going to happen (But that’s okay, someone else has already dyed their hair purple and I’m positive they won’t be the last in the group to go for it hahaha.) and bleaching it again to go back to red wasn’t an option. I’m excited to gain some length to my hair and have it be comfortably wearable at work, washable, swim able, styleable without fear of death lol, etc. Next year when my life has flipped I’ll go back to red. Because red is where my hearts at! ;)
Work is freaking lame, have a new manager who is a little bit short in the manager department. T_T Everything else is just kind of there. Finally moved on passed some things I think. I hope. I don’t know.